Hello. This is a very serious post. A serious, rambly, stressy post.
I'm not going to tell you anything groundbreaking here, and I cant imagine how many other 20 something year old's have felt this exact way for years upon years. But oh my goodness third year is hard, and I need to vent.
So when you are in primary school, you get told 'Big school is hard!'
When you are in secondary school you get told 'Be prepared for sixth form/college, its hard!'
when you are in sixth form you get told 'you think this is hard?! wait for university!'
......They didn't lie!
As part of my course, it is required that we complete a dissertation. If you don't know (I am extremely jealous of anyone who doesn't know they exist) a dissertation is a rather lengthy piece of writing that spans the majority of your third year. For example, mine is a 10,000 word research project. You might be thinking 'You know Sophie, that isn't so bad!' no its not. But juggling that alongside four other modules that have assessments including 3000 word projects or exams is difficult.
It seems like assessments and university are just and endless list of grades and word counts. In reality, I have only a few months left. I've found myself battling between
'Oh my god no this cant end I don't have a plan what am I going to do next this is my lifeeeeeee'
and
'ugh I cannot wait for this to be over I never want to write another essay again give me strength lord'
This battle is a never ending one (so it seems!) and I'm sure I will write a post in another week about how much I love university so much and my dissertation is the best thing ever.
until then, stressed stereotypical student in need of help ASAP. or a new brain. If you have either, let me know!
Toodles!
P.s ON THE PLUS SIDE (There's always a positive in every situation) I have got myself some work experience! wooooot woot. It's with a lovely looking little company called JamJarPR, and as you've gathered, its a PR company in Cardiff. I'll be spending six days with them, and cant wait to get a taste of the industry. I think it will do me the wooooorld of good!
